Why is it that when I am asleep by nine it'll be easier to get up, but when i'm asleep by ten I just want to sleep all day??? I guess the bigger question is; why does the bachelor have to be a two hour episode? I've never been a faithful follower of reality dating, but somehow I was sucked in this season. That's what winter does to you....it weakens you to the point you start making questionable decisions. Last winter was even worse. I was watching Rock of Love religiously. That played a pretty large part in our decision to discontinue cable. I long for spring, however spring will bring my Molly's first birthday and I have mixed feelings about that whole turning one thing. Aren't they suppose to stay little forever? I can't believe how much she changes just from day to day. I want to scoop her up into my arms and beg her not to change. I never had any kind of depression or anxiety after Molly was born, mostly because I was too busy, but I do remember my biggest fear was that she was going to grow up and hate me. Now I know our bond has strengthened greater than even the most rebellious teenager’s spirit.